So I recorded a podcast about widowing with Steph from Motherland Australia recently. It’s much less about the actual day that Pete died...

I do a ridiculous amount of worrying since becoming a widow about ‘The Right Thing’ For the most part that is about the kids. Am I...

The difficulties of the last couple of weeks have really been plaguing my brain. There have been many niggling things in my head that I...

There are many things you learn as part of this grieving process... laughing at ridiculously morbid things has been one of them. In the...

So... a couple of weeks ago I recorded a podcast. It’s now live. For someone with a dead husband, I seem to laugh a lot while recounting...

One of the oddest things I’m finding about grief is how quickly things can go from totally ok, to completely falling apart, lurching back...

There has been a box sitting on a side table in our kitchen for over a year. It had all the stuff that was previously on that table...

The finalising Pete’s Estate has been a weird bag of emotions. Mostly it’s sad and empty feeling, with a whole lot of weight attached....

To try and give us some capacity to cope with the current isolation situation, we have come home to my parents’ farm in the NSW Riverina....

All through last year I had a very large number of people tell me: you just have to get through the first year. And I did. And we...

Sometimes I find myself able to predict the days that are going to be hard. And then there is this week. Which is seemingly an emotional...

The thing I’ve discovered lately is that despite the amount of time passes, nothing changes. And everything changes. But there’s still...

Everyone has heard the adage about opinions and everyone having them. I just never expected so many to be given to me about my grief and...

The anniversary of Pete’s death was like this big ‘thing’ we all had in our head with no idea how to tackle. I mean, what do you do? It’s...

This week I have been childless and spending time on my own. It’s an odd experience for me who basically hasn’t had any time in my own...

Celebrating my 40th birthday without Pete wasn’t something that was ever going to happen. He was always going to be front and centre of...

So Christmas and New Years has come and gone. Come and gone in a whirl of anxiety, overly generous presents, wine, family, gin, friends...

It’s the end of the year and I have zero idea how we are going to negotiate the next month with what it holds. It is now 11 months since...

This whole widowing thing has a lot of horns on it at the minute and it has been a pretty extraordinary learning curve that just keeps...

Last weekend I successfully navigated one of the most logistically and emotionally challenging weekends to date. If I thought some of the...